A glimpse of freedom, a feeling of hope and harmony…
I don't need to listen to everything she says!
Creating a relationship with my inner voice taught me a lot about myself. Sometimes, Negative Nancy was loud and obnoxious, trying to drown out anything and everything else. "Whoa, that looks too hard! What if you fall off? Are you sure you're ready? He seems spooky today."
Negative Nancys have but one objective: to keep their humans safe at all costs, even at the expense of happiness. What good is being happy if the human is dead in the ditch? What good is being happy if others mock or laugh at the human? What if the human fails while trying?
The relationship I was cultivating allowed me to soothe Negative Nancy, to remind her that we are not ten-year-old girls anymore, that failing is a part of learning and life, that happiness is worth the risk of failure, and that failure isn't a failure at all, just a stepping stone to discovering something new.
Taking Ace on our first ride out in the field required much internal dialogue. At some point, I even had to get very firm with her, telling her kindly, "Shut up, I've got this!"
Allowing my desire to become louder, take control, and fight back against Negative Nancy was a monumental step in discovering who I was at an authentic level. I'm not just a mom and wife—I am Leanne, and I have hopes, dreams, and desires that deserve to be honored!
There are many voices inside us, and the ones we listen to will only get louder and more potent and soon take control of every decision life offers. Stepping into our power and questioning the voices, we finally see, "Hey, the gate is open; let's go explore!"
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